Flaws of Couture is much more to Garcia and I than you may think. I believe that there are many people who see and enjoy what we do. Whether it be the plus-size girl who now feels beautiful after reading our posts to the thin girl who just loves our fashion sense. There are many people who tune in and all of you take different things from it. We thank you. Thats what F.O.C. is about. We wanted to appeal to any and everyone. And thank God, we've been able to do that.
But on the other hand, we wanted to dig deeper into ourselves as girls of colour and of size. You don't need a scientist to tell you that full-figured girls are not ideal in 2011. Whether you want to say its changing or not, this is very much an issue in the Western World. People still are obsessed with being tiny and most men still admit to not wanting to be with a full figured women. And same goes for women. Although the poles are lower for women who don't accept bigger men, it's nowhere near as big of an issue as it is for the male population. Now my intentions are not to beg men to "like plus size" women, but rather to figure out truly what I stand for and what I represent. For the first time in a long time, I felt like I was about to compromise who I was or even what I stood for to make someone else happy. Do I really still have a problem with who I am? Do I still feel bad about curves, rolls or dimples on my body? Do I still look at other big people and feel as though "they aren't right" because of their size?
The answer is YES. I am still a work in progress. And I didn't know it until yesterday when I felt like I was being compared to someone else who was half my size. How can I expect others to see in me what I too can't see in myself? How wrong are guys for not "wanting" me when 20% of me doesn't want me either? I've always been a pretty confident girl, but as for assurance of my physical beauty...I've had it rough. I want to continue to motivate you and let you know how beautiful you are, but I've got to be honest with myself too! Even though I'm at an 80% right now...that 20% is vital to my health, mind and success. And most of all, to you.
So "fake" is not what I want you to get from this, but rather the honestly of sharing this journey with you. I don't have all the answers and I can't change everyones mind. But I can show them how DOG'GARN gorgeous we really are.
Thats my foolish mind.
Dedicated to Uniqueka Wilson, our "IT" Girl of the Week & blogger of the blog "Thoughts from a Foolish Mind" http://filthandwisdom.tumblr.com/
|Uniqueka Wilson @ F.O.C. Shoot: Blogger of Thought from a Foolish Mind/ Member of Cool Cotery/ Writer & so much more.|
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-Sashagai of F.O.C